Last night I wrote a message to Kaylie about it being good that she was keeping up with her testamonies. Aunt Betty told me that back when I was in middle or maybe high school, she even bought me a little journal to keep them in. I really wish I had done a better job about writing them down because just as she said I have forgotten some of the details and in some cases almost forgotten about something until my memory is sparked. I am hoping that by having this website it will help me to keep writing my testamonies. My memory was sparked last night about something that happened to me when I was in college and I would like to share it now, so I don't forget it again.
Let's see it was back at the beginning of my junior year in college. It was only November, but it had already been a long school year. I guess that's not good to say, but a lot had gone one in those two and a half months. Plus I was in my hardest semester of college. Sometime during those two and a half months I had started blocking feelings. I don't really know how to explain it, except that I was trying to block specific feelings and in the end I completely blocked all feelings and I was miserable. I remember climbing into bed one night and while I was lying there and I remember praying that we were getting ready to have a big get together for Thanksgiving and I didn't want to be miserable and that I needed a touch. After praying that I turned over and fell asleep. While I was asleep God gave me a dream. In the dream we were in a meeting and Darren played a new song and while he was playing the song I began to cry. Then while I was crying someone came up and gave me a hug. Then I woke up and got ready for my day. I went on with the rest of my week and I didn't really think much more about the dream until Sunday....
We got together that Sunday for a meeting and Darren pulled out his guitar and he started singing a song, a new song, and I began to cry. Eventually people started getting prayed for and I went up and began to cry harder. It felt so good to cry because I was getting my feelings back. During the time that I was just there crying I felt like I just needed and "Aunt Donna hug" and before I knew it she was hugging me. It just felt so good and I felt so refreshed. It wasn't until later that day that I remembered my dream. God had given me that dream 4 days earlier and then it had happened. I learned that God really does listen to our prayers (not that I didn't think He did, but it just helped to build my faith). The song Darren sang was the one that starts with I have been here all along I have poured my heart out in these songs sharing feelings from inside pouring blessings out the window's open wide I put it in your heart.... Those my not be the exact words, but I think everyone knows what song it is.
